love and forgiveness

to: you
from: me

subject: hey

How are you?

I just want u to know that it's never been easy to let go of the pain we've been through and the anger that has built inside me for a while. I'm working on forgiving myself and forgiving you. I need to let go of the pain and anger to be able to move on and to really love again. 'Coz I couldn't say I love someone when all the while I'm carrying a burden somewhere inside me: a burden from the past that seemed to cling in every part of me I keep looking back and fearing what lies ahead of me.

I want you to know how sorry I am for all the pain you've been through while with me. I never meant to hurt you. I loved you and that love will always stay in my heart until it stops beating. I've always wanted you to be happy and your happiness means a lot to me. I'm happy you found that happiness I can't give and I'm glad you made that right decision. There's really no easy way to break someone's heart but I know you wanted something better for both of us. There was too much pain, confusion, promises, longing... it's too much it all got mixed up we just crashed and the only thing left is to say goodbye.

I'm sorry I left you waiting.

I'm sorry. Forgive me for all the shortcomings I had when I was still with you. I'm sorry for all the tears you cried. I'm sorry that I wasn't able to hold you when you needed me the most. I'm sorry I neglected the beauty of love we once shared-the beauty I once saw in you. I'm sorry for the promises that were broken. I'm sorry.

Forgive me.

You chose the right decision. Sorry I blamed everything on you. I got bruised so bad I thought I'm the only victim. I got so scared of being alone I even blamed God for everything fate has given me.

I know you are happy right now. I am, too. in a way. But expressing my love for someone wouldn't be as real if I didn't let go of the hate inside me.

I forgive you for whatever it was in the past. I'm sorry. Please forgive me.

Say hi to Shiela for me.


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from: you
to: me
subject: Re: hey

i forgive you, a long time ago.

im okay and happy right now in a way that i didnt thought i could be.

what we had before taught me several things in life, and even though we had to go through a lot of pain,it also paved the way for other opportunities in our lives.

thank you for forgiving me, i hope you won't regret having met me, i wish i brought or taught you something as well in the past.

il say hi to shiela for you, to be honest she's also concerned if you will forgive us, im relieved to know that you finally do.

thank you so much

i hope you find that someone who will give you the love you deserve.

sorry for all the pain i caused you and for hurting you.