love and forgiveness

to: you
from: me

subject: hey

How are you?

I just want u to know that it's never been easy to let go of the pain we've been through and the anger that has built inside me for a while. I'm working on forgiving myself and forgiving you. I need to let go of the pain and anger to be able to move on and to really love again. 'Coz I couldn't say I love someone when all the while I'm carrying a burden somewhere inside me: a burden from the past that seemed to cling in every part of me I keep looking back and fearing what lies ahead of me.

I want you to know how sorry I am for all the pain you've been through while with me. I never meant to hurt you. I loved you and that love will always stay in my heart until it stops beating. I've always wanted you to be happy and your happiness means a lot to me. I'm happy you found that happiness I can't give and I'm glad you made that right decision. There's really no easy way to break someone's heart but I know you wanted something better for both of us. There was too much pain, confusion, promises, longing... it's too much it all got mixed up we just crashed and the only thing left is to say goodbye.

I'm sorry I left you waiting.

I'm sorry. Forgive me for all the shortcomings I had when I was still with you. I'm sorry for all the tears you cried. I'm sorry that I wasn't able to hold you when you needed me the most. I'm sorry I neglected the beauty of love we once shared-the beauty I once saw in you. I'm sorry for the promises that were broken. I'm sorry.

Forgive me.

You chose the right decision. Sorry I blamed everything on you. I got bruised so bad I thought I'm the only victim. I got so scared of being alone I even blamed God for everything fate has given me.

I know you are happy right now. I am, too. in a way. But expressing my love for someone wouldn't be as real if I didn't let go of the hate inside me.

I forgive you for whatever it was in the past. I'm sorry. Please forgive me.

Say hi to Shiela for me.


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from: you
to: me
subject: Re: hey

i forgive you, a long time ago.

im okay and happy right now in a way that i didnt thought i could be.

what we had before taught me several things in life, and even though we had to go through a lot of pain,it also paved the way for other opportunities in our lives.

thank you for forgiving me, i hope you won't regret having met me, i wish i brought or taught you something as well in the past.

il say hi to shiela for you, to be honest she's also concerned if you will forgive us, im relieved to know that you finally do.

thank you so much

i hope you find that someone who will give you the love you deserve.

sorry for all the pain i caused you and for hurting you.

I hope you found yours

'...at least once in every incarnation, the Soulmate who is sure to cross our path. Even if it is only for a matter of moments, because those moments bring with them a Love so intense that it justifies the rest of our days.'

I almost choked myself with my own tears. If I were to believe Paulo Coelho's words, and I do believe in soulmate, I could fairly say I did met my other half not too long ago. It was a brief encounter that would last me a lifetime. And if I have to do it over and over again in my next incarnation, to find my way through my soulmate's arms and kisses until one day fate would keep us apart, I'd never waste time and never let that someone pass by. It would be the same feeling that would keep my heart beating. It would be the same reason that would paint smile in my lips. And that someone will always be in my thoughts and my dreams. Now, I think, that justifies the intensity of love I am feeling for the rest of my days.

'I love you, and because I love you, I would sooner have you hate me for telling you the truth than adore me for telling you lies.'

i lost my only one

"At this moment there are six billion four hundred seventy million eight hundred eighteen thousand six hundred seventy one people in the world. Some are running scared. Some are coming home. Some tell lies to make it through the day. Others are just now facing the truth. Some are evil men at war with good. And some are good, struggling with evil. Six billion people in the world, six billion souls. And sometimes... all you need is one." - P. Sawyer

tatooed

the sun shines brightly today
i remember your face
that's always glistening
as you wake up smiling

then the rain starts to drizzle
it takes me back in time
when i feel your hug
never fails to warm me up

as the sun sets down
i get so melancholy
but i thought how we once enjoyed
this God's greatest mastery

now i will let myself sleep
as the stars twinkle in the dark
let my mind free itself
from all the twinge of the past

time bomb

the clock is ticking
i hear my heart beating
but anytime i might stop breathing

when? i could only hope

i miss
the warmth of your touch
moist of your breath
curves of your body
the sweet smell of your skin

i will
forever long for it
drenched with it
imagine touching it
savor every scent of you

for now
i will patiently wait
forever anticipate to that day
when we become one
and feel your touch once again